28 June 2010

Real Richness

"The one who doesn't fall, doesn't stand up." ~ Fedor Emelianenko, after losing for the first time in ten years.
I once was on top of my little world. I was young, smart, athletic and well-off. But life and sh*t happened, and in 2007, I found myself on the brink of a divorce and a single parent to a young baby. Life had been good to me for a long, long time, and it was my turn to experience the down side of life. I had gone through the death of my sister, a chaotic and tumultuous marriage and divorce, and I found myself having to rebuild my life from scratch.

It felt more difficult to rebuild than it had been to build in the first place. Maybe it was because I was older, or because I also had a child, but it most likely was because I simply did not have the energy or the confidence to stand up from the dark hole in which I resided.

I felt damaged and subjected to criticism. I felt wronged and that life had been unfair to me.

But time passed, and slowly things changed. I found myself independent again, with the unwavering support of my family, and now, in 2010, I am finally feeling as though I have taken back the life and freedom that I felt had been robbed from me.

A friend of mine, in his infinite wisdom, said to me yesterday, "Life has paid you back for the shi*t you went through."

It is a curious thing, how we oftentimes fail to see the positives in our life until someone throws it in our path. It is so easy to complain and see all the darkness in our life, but when light shines through, it is almost as if we are blind to it.

But I see clearly. And I am deeply grateful.

I have a beautiful and happy little girl, an amazing family, the love and support of incredible, good friends, a wonderful career, and a promising life ahead of me.

For the first time in a long time, I feel as if I am the richest woman on earth.


  1. This is very inspiring and God does work in ways we cannot see.

  2. Anonymous7:36 pm

    having been with you through part of this journey, i feel so proud of you for getting to this point. and i hope that one day i could be saying the same for myself, the things you are saying on your blog.

  3. i think nova that eveyone experiences sometime in their life an event or circumstance that causes them to question everything they know. and, disturbing as it is at the time, it *does* teach you things about yourself. you are enver the same afterwards. you know yourself deeper than before, so you have a firmer base from which to build the rest of your sweet life.

  4. A very beautiful way of being wealthy. :)

    I love reading your posts. God knows how many emo posts exist out there. I just need blogs like yours to cancel out the blues. Hehe.

  5. Fair winds are a blessing. It is good that you notice them.


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