29 September 2008

Weeds

"The grass isn't greener on the other side. It's greener on the side you water." ~ Unknown

I've spent some time watering this "other" side, and all that has grown so far this week have been weeds. I stood on the other side of the fence, looking at this side, and saw a lush garden, full of life and hope. So, I jumped over to this side from the other side. I couldn't wait to enjoy this garden, but as soon as I got here, I realized that what I had thought to be green, rolling hills, are actually rocky, barren inclines. It's not too late to jump back over the fence again, but there is little honor in retreating.

So, for now, I will continue to tread through this desert trail that I have started to travel. I just have to believe that there is some higher purpose and reason for why I came to be where I am now.

Next time, I'll learn to stay on the side of the fence where I am already. Of course, hindsight is always crystal clear.

07 September 2008

Reunion

I'm about to be reunited with family and friends in a short time. But this... this is the best reunion I've seen in a long time:




If you've already seen this (I'm sure everyone has already), it's worth watching over and over, and if you haven't, don't miss it. It's a true tale of love and friendship. I cried, as I always do when watching a love story.

03 September 2008

Missing Moe

I miss you. I miss you more than I would have thought. Has it only been a year since you went away? I still can hear your voice in my head. I remember that I called you the week before you left us. I asked if I could visit you. You sounded so tired.

"Just call me before you come," you said. You had just come home from the hospital and you needed your rest.

"I will," I said.

I never did call you. I got tied up with the baby. I got busy doing other things. I got lazy. I made a promise to myself to visit you the next weekend. It would be Labor Day weekend and I would have had more time to spend with you.

It would be the last time that I would ever hear your voice. The following Friday, after I arrived in Maryland, I received the news that you had passed away.

"It can't be," I said to myself. "I was supposed to see you this weekend."

You left, and I wasn't even there to hold your hand one last time. I wasn't there to tell you how great of a friend you were to me, and how I had always looked up to you when we were kids. I wanted to tell you again how courageous you were to have battled breast cancer for five years, and how you stayed courageous even as you were in remission and you were called a "survivor," only to have it come back, and you fought valiantly, and even as you knew it was God's will to call you home, you told us not to hate God, and your faith in Him never wavered. Most of all, I wish I had been there to just thank you for blessing my life with your friendship. You were and still are an amazing woman and friend.

I miss you, Moe.