08 March 2005

Weapons in Dreams


…We had a birthday party for a friend’s little girl. All of our family and friends were there. We were all there in our house, laughing, and smiling and enjoying the togetherness of the party. It had been a long time since everyone had been together like that. It was a great feeling to be surrounded by friends and family.

Suddenly, someone had turned off the lights. The room became very dark, and no one could see what was in front of our faces. A swoosh of air breezed by our necks, and several of the children screamed in terror. The lights turned on again, and to our horror, we saw that many of our guests lay on the floor, dead and bloodied. Panic coursed through my veins, and I knew that whatever force had just visited our party was coming back for more.

There were a few that remained standing. We all quickly made plans to prepare for another lashing from this unseen force. We armed ourselves to the teeth with whatever weapons were available. I had picked up two long swords and was prepared to yield one straight into the heart of this evil, unseen being. We had all lined ourselves in a “V” formation against a corner, and were prepared for whatever came our direction.

I stood in front of the formation with my two weapons ready. The lights turned off, and again, we felt the swoosh of air pass by us. Blinded by the darkness, I thrust my swords in front of me…

Suddenly, I woke up.

I tried to will myself back to sleep in hopes of continuing my dream and finally being able to deal with the demons that have haunted my dreams. I came so close. If only I had stayed asleep for one more second, I know that I would have slain the demons.

I am left feeling unsettled by not being to accomplish or finish what I have set out to do. So, until the demons in my dreams are finally eliminated, I live with the feeling of restlessness and anxiety that I have yet to undertake many difficult challenges ahead in my life.